Roxanna

mmmyourcool

2006-09-06T07:36:13Z

fuck people and starting shit over livejournal
this is a place for me to express how i feel about shit
so new journal...friends only

http://ohhfuckass.livejournal.com

WAHmbulance

2006-09-04T21:49:15Z

main thing about me you need to know if your a guy is i say shit to make it seems like it doesnt hurt. because if you keep it bottled up it does hurt less. i want to be with you and im willing to adjust for it but you just think im an alcoholic and someone that plays head games with guys. thing is...i dont play head games. i let whoever know what the fuck is up.

i asked you out because i knew that was the only way i'd stop myself from going after someone and your the first guy i actually care about that cares about me back.

yeah your COOL

2006-09-03T23:22:51Z

two whole days and its over
three month promises are shit
i wanted to break up with him
but he got to it first

it feels sooooo damn weird getting broken up with
even if you wanted to do it
this is the first time ever

really bad weekend
hopefully tonight makes up for it

omgzzroxy @ 2006-09-02T16:12:00

2006-09-02T23:14:27Z

verns a bitch
dont spread shit thats not true about my friends

asked matt out lastnight
...he said yeah

yup got hella job applications with jessika today from the mall
party tonight

fuckity fuck fuck FUCK

2006-09-02T04:08:38Z

i dont know what im doing
i feel like im losing grip
everyone puts me on such a high pedestal
especially guys
JUST DONT
cause ill fucking trample your ass =]

Shes out of luck and out of hope and out of cigarettes
misunderstood with naked pictures on the internet
her social deviance is teasing me I know what I want

and Im really gonna really let her know (woah)
that I like her but I just dont care enough
to fool around with love

yeah my babys pretty as a car crash
sexy as the stinger of a hornet in your arm
just another modern swinger
screaming catch me if you can with a cigarette in hand
and it’s love
its heavy and it hurts and its love

strung out on blow she doesnt know why shes not feeling good
dropped out of school and now shes moving out to Hollywood
her reckless decadence is taking things a little too far

and Im really gonna really let her know (woah)
that I like her but I just dont care enough
to fool around with love

yeah my babys pretty as a car crash subtle as a splinter
yeah my babys smooth as sandpaper warm just like the winter
screaming catch me if you can with a cigarette in hand
and its love
its heavy and it hurts and its love

staring at my shoes thinking of something to say
but nothings better than what silence is saying
when every time I turn around shes always looking away
its just the nature of the game that we're playing

And I think I’m tapping out,
I think I’m gonna skip the title bout

i really dont know how to tell him

DIG A DITCH AND BURY THE BITCH

2006-08-31T03:56:13Z

jessikas making derick, alex, justin, and me food
yummmm
shes my personal chef fool

todays been chill
i wanna get DRUNK
8 beers down...didnt feel shit
except the worst tummy ache

this is bill
eugene killed bill yesterday =[

i love my life

hella people ended up showing up at jess'
so much shit happened tonight
hella black people beat jessika, matt l, and eugene.
im so glad i wasnt out there
i wouldve tried to fight and gotten my ass whooped fool

i dont know what to do about him right now
im soooo fucking lost fool its ridiculous and jess knows how i feel

ROFL

2006-08-30T22:23:06Z

got drunk at pierces with jessika, eugene, nick, megan, domonic, matt, and john

eugenes mad at me =[
bahahahahaha im sorry
you get payback on my ass

britney i thought you were coming over?
your all talk

milk,milk,lemonade...

2006-08-29T08:18:50Z

hungout at jessikas with derick, matt and alex

adult swims fucking weird
&& pee wees playhouse is the reason why kids my generation have ADHD

i do like you
dont second guess it
im sorry im so shy

job interview tommorow @ 1
genes bringing me. hes scared ill get raped if i walk in fairfield.
visiting jessika afterwardssss

your coming to my house to kick my ass?
do it LMFAO
are you mad because ryan tried to make a move on me and i denied him?
dumbass

matt

2006-08-29T02:15:45Z

i do like you
im just weird at showing my emotions =/
and i dont like when people look too much into what i say
if i didnt want to talk to you or i didnt like you
you'd know
but i do like you <3

omgzzroxy @ 2006-08-28T02:28:00

2006-08-28T09:28:47Z

i wanna re-do my whole life
im not happy with who i am right now
and no i dont mean the fucking alcohol shit

im so happy. i love my life. srsly dood.

2006-08-27T10:47:09Z

im sooooooooo drunk
habagalulah
fool
i love brooke except for when she kicks me out of rooms for some guy
fuck that shit dood
hah i have two new key phrases
guess what they are...
ROFL
this is a test to see how well you know meeeeeeeeeeee :]

fuckfuckFUCK

2006-08-26T20:31:25Z

housekeeper changed her mind
shes telling on me
owellz fool
hah im catching something
&& megan i found your vodka

ryan and steven came over lastnight
ryan didnt say one word but steven was an ass to me
i dont know how they knew i was having a party
or why the fuck they'd come
i have 4 people on my hate list
&& their two of em

omgzzroxy @ 2006-08-26T03:31:00

2006-08-26T10:38:42Z

i fucking hate ryan and steven
wtf fool wtf
this shits not cool
ryan hella tried to make a move on me a week ago and i wouldnt do shit

there was a party at my house
someone left hella vodka behind =]
i dont know where the fuck jessica is
=[ i had a convo wirh jeremy
he feels the same way about her as i do about him
he knows exact;y how i feel its crqzy

omgzzroxy @ 2006-08-25T22:05:00

2006-08-26T05:06:03Z

hahaha best party ever dood i love it
more people are coming too fool

omgzzroxy @ 2006-08-25T13:50:00

2006-08-25T20:53:11Z

matt scared the shit out of me lastnight
i was wasted and he told me someone was trying to break in
i love having the house to myself
but i hate being alone in it. like right now.

john and i talked lastnight were friends
im tired of the whole fight because it was really stupid
i cant remember what we talked about
except that he wants to be as close as me and eugene are

sooo yeah i have to go clean and get dressed

omgzzroxy @ 2006-08-24T10:47:00

2006-08-24T17:49:34Z

i feel kind of stupid for lastnight
i hate showing affection towards guys because i seem like some boy crazy bitch
and i dont know anything that is considered cute is pretty much impossible for me to do
because cheesyness is disgusting to me
hah rambling.stop.
i got him to give in lastnight on kissing me though
&& he says he likes me too
just hopefully i dont get fucked over again

you can tell i like someone if i consistently talk about them to my 3 bestfriends ♥

im still drunk
it hella carried over fool
wtf

omgzzroxy @ 2006-08-24T00:42:00

2006-08-24T07:43:39Z

i hella like matt
he gets me giddy
noone gets me giddy
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dont wanna fuck this up =]]

fuckity FUCK

2006-08-23T22:38:09Z

i like how he wouldnt even kiss me lastnight because i was drunk and he didnt want our first kiss to be that way
first time i got rejected while trying to make a move and it was cute

but i mightve fucked it all up lastnight

i just want to be friends with him
but when im drunk it seems like thats not true
i was fighting with him earlier
about to punch him in the face
how the fuck does that lead to sex?
i didnt want shit to do with him lastnight
i dont know what the fuck happened

i hope matt understands im not that type of girl
i dont hookup with random guys
i dont play head games
im not a slut
and that just isnt how i am
=[

SAY HONEY, SAY HONEY

2006-08-22T22:29:20Z

"who does he think is nasty, and ugly?
like everybody else?
watch the fuck out, i swear to god.
im not afraid of you.
....
your nasty.
your ugly.
and i fucking hate you.
i really fucking do."

from:

your calling me ugly?!
i know im not the prettiest girl around
but i know im sure as hell prettier then you

i needa watchout?
what were starting this over again?
i'll fucking beat your ass
your a twig honey
♥

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ahahahaha
i dont care about your letters.
burn them.
they mean nothing, obviously.
whose he with, deary?
whose he always been with?

who does he think is nasty, and ugly?
like everybody else?
watch the fuck out, i swear to god.
im not afraid of you.

i dont give a fuck about february.
he never wanted you, like he always wanted me.
nobody fucking wants you.
everybodys SICK of you.
i hear it all the time.

your nasty.
your ugly.
and i fucking hate you.
i really fucking do.

nobody thinks your pretty, and ive never ever heard anyone say it, and mean it.
they say it to you to make you feel better you nasty, gross, lose your virginity on a couch drunk as fuck bitch.

you have no real friends.
and i prefer my few friends that actually LIKE me then some that PRETEND to like me cuz you annoy the shit out of everyone.

you think your pretty?
your lying to yourself.
you think your intelligent?
again. lies.

your the biggest fucking idiot ive ever met.
and he never wanted you, obviously, because who got their heart broken for being obsessive and stalking him?
you did.
remember bitch he stayed with me, and its me he's with every night.
and you were never ANYTHING to him.

you think you loved him?
LMFAO. your stupid, because he always loved me.

your a dumb bitch, you know that?

so burn your fucking letters, cuz i could give a FUCK what happened in the past.

hes with me.
now.
and til you fucking die.
hows that sound BITCH.

YEA FUCK YOU.

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lmao !!!!

AHAHAHAHAHA

YOU SERIOUSLY THINK YOUR PRETTY????!!!

prettier than me?!!?!

bitch you could land a fucking plane on your chin.
you have bad acne.
you wear so much make up it looks like you could peal your fucking face off.
your orange, and you look like the fucking moon.
your arms are fucking retarded.

and you sure as hell cant take this.

remember bitch. your a slut, and your fucking disgusting.
inside and out.

as a person, you suck.

and your chin doesnt make you different, it just makes you fucking ugly.
its not unique you dumbass.
its fucking retarded, and fucking ugly ass fuck.

go die bitch, before i kill you, cuz i swear to fucking god you ran from before, you probably will again.

but it doesnt matter, because ill get you this time.

i promise.
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you seriously think your prettier then me?
mmmk whatever

you chink eyed dyke
i have bad acne? i have like 1 pimple
i wear too much makeup? ok, whatever. i dont care. i like makeup. deal with it.

i know i have a big chin honey
and i dont really give a shit about what you say

im done with this
GROW THE FUCK UP

look at me now

2006-08-22T05:47:26Z

i dont like getting followed
or having people literally stop in the middle of busy ass streets and try to holler at me

they werent even ghetto ass black guys or mexicans
i dont give a fuck if that sounds racist

but today scared the shit out of me
i thought i was going to get kidnapped and raped

oh so impatient

2006-08-21T05:41:29Z

i feel sick
my appetite is gone
im soo fucking tired
like i cant sit still without drifting off
early night
i love my sleep

got to see my jess jess today
explored a creek in vacaville

i might get to stay home this weekend =]]
party party party
hopefully i dont fuck up my story tho
lol

omgzzroxy @ 2006-08-20T08:53:00

2006-08-20T16:00:29Z

if your talking to me...
dont tell me what the fuck to write in my journal. you stupid ass bitch i have letters begging to differ. so i dont even fucking care. i'll be an ass to you because your nothing big in my life. so if your nothing big why the fuck would i sensor shit for you.

[COMPLETELY DIFFERENT SUBJECT/PEOPLE]

i dont care anymore
i dont like him anymore
were just friends
last night was akward
i feel like people kept talking shit
whatever gossips funny
im glad my life ammuses you that much

i think it's pretty quite boring. just partying and friends but bravo you found something that deserves a whole night of shit talking. kudos.

ive heard shit you said
dont want to have a problem with me?
DONT TALK SHIT ABOUT ME
you already ruined it
everyone tells me everything
you just need to understand that
and quit acting hella fake
mmmk thanks

"hey wats up fool! i feel bad i didnt go hot tubbin with u when u called me before u left. i was too busy wastin my life with that bitch roxy lol. o well. wat u been up to? i miss u <3"

"cuz shes a bitch and broke up with me on my 18th bday and then told me she cheated on me. wat a bitchhh. remember the time i told her i had to go home and then we went to the jelly belly factory. lol good times in the 707. sd is probably better tho. i hate fairfield. save me"

ok. we broke up almost two months ago. i already told you i DIDNT cheat on you. you told me you cheated on me three times. w/e dood all your friends are still telling me your butthurt still and you miss me. just dont bring up my name again. it's over and done with.

cover up with makeup in the mirror

2006-08-19T19:29:30Z

ignore the blog from lastnight
i got fucked up and emo lastnight faggggggg
there was just too much drama

1)i felt lied too
2)i heard ALOT of shit i didnt want to hear
3)i lost my cellphone
4)my mom keeps nagging me to get a job. my i.d.'s in the mail

i'm helpless to all the shit thats making me sad
so just fuck this shit
the only thing i can do is stop caring
&& i dont want to
i finally tore down the wall ryan built up
i know how to turn my emotions off like a switch
but i really dont want to right now
theres this gut feeling something goods gonna happen soon
that will actually be worth getting torn up about
i just dont know what
"everything happens for a reason. so take a chill pill"
i just need to keep reminding myself that
it's the only thing that keeps me going

oh your so fucking funny
jay leno chin?
hahahahhahahaHAH
i know i have a big chin
but thats what makes me look unique
so fuck off
mr. i fuck ugly girls because their easier
you look like the fucking joker when you smile

on a lighter note, i got to see my brooklyn fever yesterday
we fucking TACKLED eachother
&& she started crying
ROFL reunion
i stole her a sweatshirt because she was cold <33

jen kept telling me how beautiful i was lastnight
that made me happier too <33
jens tonight....maybe? i dunno i have to find a ride

[i bet you dont read all this. helluhhh fucking long]

when the fuck did i say that

2006-08-18T19:19:35Z

i hate drunk dialing
i hate drunk commenting

you feel like such a fucking dumbass the next day

eugenes making me breakfeast [=

zZzZz

2006-08-17T03:21:56Z

tonights one of those nights where i just wanna sleeeppp
im such a homebody sometimes

parents are arguing
my moms been talking to my uncle about them staying together
he might be my stepdad but he's pretty much my dad
because my dad was never there and recently died
i hope they dont break up
=//